I don’t see everything that my eyes can see. I mean, even though my eye sees it, there is no brain processing of it. When I use my peripheral vision, all I see are only the same roads, same shops, same crowds. That is monotonous and boring. In fact, that is useless, as the more I see, the more my mind dwells on the problems and solutions related to that. And still worse, I am complaining about the same thing every single day. That is why I decided not to look outside while I’m on the office cab ride. Hey, I promise, it is not because I wish to doze off during my morning commute.
Unfortunately, this has become a habit now, and worse, I am, rather unintentionally, following a form of this behaviour in the office campus. I realised it when people say that they’ve seen me and I failed to notice them. I understand that I should be aware of this and be watchful. Another promise - it was happening even before my eyesight was far better than the current state.
The heart-wrenching moment occurred when I was waiting at a bus stop a few streets away from my home. There was a crow perched on a nearby tree branch very close to me and cawing. It didn’t fly when I looked at it and it started cawing in different tones as if it were talking to me. Oh, what if it really was talking to me? Perhaps this was one of the crows that I give biscuits to in the morning. It had recognised me. I never looked at them closely. I couldn’t recognise it at that moment. For me, all the crows are the same, except that one broken leg crow. How hurtful it must have been for this crow to realise that I didn’t recognise it and was not responding to its friendly caws! Yeah, one last promise - that was when I decided that I would pay more attention and remember as many friend-crows as possible ;)
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